why do i even bother posting depressing stuff anymore. it's gonna be a chore for me to read through my blog when i get older. 


but... i only have depressing things to say..
.....


i've never felt more alone. the entire day. i just felt like nobody wanted to talk to me. V didnt seem to want to engage in any conversations with me anymore. i seldom talk to P now. M seems nice still, though, bless her soul.


Trng was alright. the ppl were alright. but that's probably because they dont know me that well yet. they dont know me well enough to acknowledge how much of a bore i am. im guessing some of them alr do. J was nice enough to acknowledge that and yet still bother to interact with me, bless his soul. 


i have the tendency to think that ppl willing to talk to me probably just wanna fuck me. nobody really cares what you have to say. nobody cares what you think. people have needs. and those needs need to be fulfilled. 


oh what am i babbling about. i need to get work done.