"you look stunning in black hair"

why am i falling for simplistic compliments like this. i'm such a stereotypical schoolgirl urgh.

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attempting to paint my old backpack was not a fruitful endeavor.

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it's not fair how you can get to be bratty and smug and overly arrogant yet still so good looking. it's not fair.

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"track and field is an individual sport"

i love running. the individualism of this sport is a bonus. i need my alone time. and what better way to spend it than running? (no, dun even think about masturbating. because that doesnt help you achieve anything.)

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maybe i should start hanging out more often with my classmates. though not exactly popular, (define popular anyway) they're the kind of ppl i'd like to surround myself with to help me better my academics. feels like high school.

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success is the best revenge. live this.

first day of school! wish me luck.

i'm officially a Year 2 student now. mixed feelings. actually, no. i don't feel any particular way towards this. let's hope something interesting happen today.

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as much as i'd like to deny it, romantic gestures really hit my spot. try harder, you're almost there ;)

11/4/2012

today was pleasant enough.

and now i want a lover who rides a vespa.

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the chest pains are back.

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15/4/2012

Mum: *complains about having no money*

the following week...

Mum: "Eh, i bought an ipad"

good for you, mother. good for you.

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i'm getting a little tired of this persona. tired of this mask i put on all the fucking time. it's just a goddamn facade.

edit: i've finished watching "elfen lied". what am i going to do with my life now ha! it's an anime btw. it's somber, dark, and has a mature tone with plenty of gore.

i try to stay out of family matters cuz you know, im still a kid. i stepped out of line once and tried to solve some issues within the family and got put in my place (sort of).

well i learnt my lesson and figured i'm not yet of an appropriate age to tell my family members how to make their decisions and from then on, i've been sort of like an onlooker to all the shit happening in the family. and i enjoy just looking at stupid things people do. it's funny. but who knows, in the future i might make those silly mistakes too. we're all humans anyway. we succumb to materialism way too easily.

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my room stinks, according to my brother. hmmm.

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1. Sis is pregnant, AGAIN. god knows what she's gonna do with this second baby. probably gonna keep this one too. i mean, you're 20, girl!! your husband is 20 too! he hasnt even entered the army yet! their side of the family's not well off enough to take care of all you. YOUR side of the family isnt well off enough to take care of all of you either. but, whatever decision she makes, i'll support it. even though my support doesnt really matter. hahaha. in any case, i'm pro-choice.

2. Mum casually mentioned that she had a tubal ligation. when? i don't know. probably some time after my younger brother was born (about 10 years ago). take a hint, sister. nah i'm just kidding. you do what you want.

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yay J is coming over with vodka tml! :D

(this dude. hmmm. i like him. hahaha)

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school's starting in a week. can't wait to bury myself in work. out of my 7 modules, i'm really looking forward to:

1. Feature Writing

2. Public Relations

3. Conversational French

Can't wait!! :D

maybe i should give E a chance. we have so much in common. and he's such a gentleman. i actually feel loved by him haha.

oh i wish i wasn't so picky sometimes.

1. school is starting soon (yay)

2. i got into french class (yay)

3. i've been throwing tantrums more often than i'd like (urgh)

4. i'll continue waiting, K.D

5. mum's getting a promotion at work (yay)

6. moving into a condo apartment at punggol in 3 years (yay?)

7. i really really really dislike some of my new classmates. but i'll be nice.

8. i can't wait for sushi date with E next wednesday (yay)

9. "it's my thing, i stand still and sing sad songs like this" HAHA

10. my hair isn't growing fast enough. i want a ponytail.

11. Strictly Pancakes with P and V was nice. saw a sec school senior/polymate working there. damn he's hot. *drools*

12. some vodka right now would be appreciated

13. i kinda dislike smoking now. it makes me feel too unhealthy (but then again, that's what drives me to workout)

that is all.