Mum always zones out when i talk to her. so she just ignores me most of the time. i tend to zone out when ppl talk to me too. i guess it runs in the family.
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it's not that i'm apathetic to everything. i do get affected by certain issues. i just don't know how to react to them so i pass it off as something i don't care about. well, most of the time i really just don't care. but sometimes, i do. and it's odd hearing people say that i have, and i quote, no emotions. of course they don't mean it literally, but you get the drift.
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exams are OVERRRR. i dont think i'll do well at all for Communication Issues but hey, at least it's over. here's hoping i'll get decent grades this semester anyway.
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i got my ears pierced. two ear lobe piercings and one helix on the left. i like them.
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i should probably get a part time job this semester break. 

To a certain Mr. Tan (if that even is your actual surname),

it disgusts me how you literally pretend to be someone else just to talk to me. i don't know what your intentions are anymore but it's getting intrusive and i will not take this lightly.

secondly, i don't understand why you're making such a big deal out of me not talking to you anymore. we have our own lives. go back to your own you obsessive boy. you have your whole life ahead of you. don't fucking waste it.

this is the first and last time i am giving you any attention. i will not address this issue anymore.

my insecurities.

i have so little self esteem that whenever anyone show me the slightest bit of interest, i jump into a relationship. im so afraid that if i dun grab this fella, there wouldnt be anyone else wanting me. and of course, i end up hurting the other party because i never EVER really get that interested at all.

and of course, i long for company.

i need to be more independent. i think im starting to get the hang of it.
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it's time to get healthier, fitter. i miss the jawline i had for like, a month because i was really working out hard at that time. 

i have gotten lazier, naturally. but no more sloth! easier said than done, but done it shall be. muahhaha. 

i'm a little drunk as i type this. goodnight.

i hate sleeping alone.

why do i even drink anymore. i dont even like vodka now.

just gonna finish this last bottle of vodka. it's been in my fridge for about a month. i cant let it go to waste, so here goes.
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oh and i really enjoyed watching the London olympics taekwondo matches. very intense. some of them, at least.
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exams are coming and this semester is ENDING. goodbye to fucking francais, radio, and comiss and MBM i fucking have a fucking profound disdain towards these modules.