"i wake up, i survive, i go back to sleep"

i dun have much to say anymore. things have been rather monotonous lately. education. love. life. i can only hope for the current monotony to turn for the better. and by better, i mean any changes would be welcomed.

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Romance budding all around me. cheesiness ensues. everyone's finding new love while i'm stationary. i can only hope for this to last forever.

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My social life couldn't get any worse. well, i guess it can but i'm not satisfied with what i have. the grass is always greener on the other freaking side.

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Today was extraordinarily productive. why i find that term relevant? i do only about a quarter of what i should be accomplishing on a daily basis. today, however, found me rampaging through my outrageous amount of work. they've been piling up since eons ago, mind you.

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That's all for now. Monotonous life, like i've mentioned. pray change will come soon.

things have gotten stale. we're fighting almost everyday. well, not literally, but still. i wonder what happened to us along the way. it's probably me. yea.

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feeling a little empty today. K came over to my sch and surprise-visited me. i have to say, u really caught me off guard haha. but i had to film footage for one of my modules, so K had to go home almost as soon as i caught up with him. im really very sorry. honest.

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and J, i wish i could be a better fren. i nvr know what to say to cheer ppl up. sigh. need to read up on self help books haha. if u happen to read this, know that i still see u as one of my closest friend!

somehow leaving secondary school, us going into different institutions, changed our friendship. i know that's bound to happen, but i can still rmb us joking about gg to that herbal store tgt like best pals once we get old.

kinda glad we actually shared mutual affection at one point of time. guess we wasted that chance huh. haha. but it's okay, i love u as a fren, and i hope someday we'll be just as close as we were in secondary school :D

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every passing day i feel like my pool of vocab is... evaporating(see, i couldn't even find a better word to use). this is utterly unacceptable. like what G said, i've never felt more ... whats that word... k i cant find the right word, so to replace said word: i've never felt more ashamed about my english standard. especially after going through sem 1.1.

nvm that, i'm not good at giving speeches. i'm unable to speak in front of a bunch of strangers.

i love location videoing though! damn, i can only wish that i'll end up as an outrageously successful director in the future. and apparently, some of my seniors are working part time as video editors (and they're earning quite a sum!). i cannot wait for the next locvid assignment :D

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Was reading through the previous blog posts, and damn. what was wrong with me?