it sucks that I don't have the ability to simply be friends with guys. I always want something more. And it's not even lust. I just want to be loved by them. I guess this desire to be loved by guys comes from me not ever feeling loved by any male individuals when I was younger. I don't know for sure but I don't like the way I am. I just want some guy friends and feel like a normal male teenager for once.

I usually try and be mature about my insecurities and affirm myself that I am capable of ignoring this inferiority I get. but these feelings have been coming back rather frequently. Maybe I'm just tired.

How depressing is it that a stranger is more willing to provide you financial assistance than your mother?

"I want porridge"

"go buy it yourself"

"But I'm sick"

"oh but I showered and washed my hair already."

Good going mum you sure do care about me as much as how you claim to when you tell your friends about taking care of me when I'm sick.

" I woke up early this morning to do housework and rushed out to get some chores done then came home to concoct Chinese medicine for my son oh I'm so busy"

Yea right you mopped the floor which was already sparkling clean and you went out to activate a membership card that is beneficial to only you and you left your younger son home with me and I had to provide breakfast and lunch for him.

you're such a suck up. you make up stories to present yourself as a loving single mum to your friends when really, you're a childish whiny brat going through a mid life crisis. As much as I love you, you're not as much of a parent as you make yourself out to be.