I'm quite terrified that internship is ending soon. I feel like work is my only friend. I don't confide into anyone much. If I feel sad, I just play depressing music and get working. I should probably get a job and just slog my holidays away. Away from troubles and relationships. God I need a vacation. 

If you're coming back, great. If not, so be it. I'm 19 years old; I have goals and aspirations. What do I need love for? 

N.T.

Sneaking into a condo at night, skinny dipping, getting lost with a bottle of wine, playing songs I don't even listen to on his portable speakers. Absolutely surreal. Last night was amazing. Nic x

Do u even know how much I like you? Or do u like me as a friend? Do you even care about me? Oh spencer. I haven't been infatuated with anyone in a long time. What do you do that draws me closer?
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Taekwondo competition tml. Ivp. Second competition now. Won 3 medals out of 3 events the first time. Wonder how I'd fare this time around. Not getting my hopes up though. I didn't have much time to train.
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Internship is starting soon. Long story short, I don't really get paid for it. So I gotta find a part time job to feed myself for the next 6 months.

Love is a game. Whoever loves more, loses. And I have lost at this game twice now.

You're one of the very few people I genuinely care about. But it feels like we're drifting apart. I don't want to lose you. I don't want to be alone. not when I had had you so close. Tag

it sucks that I don't have the ability to simply be friends with guys. I always want something more. And it's not even lust. I just want to be loved by them. I guess this desire to be loved by guys comes from me not ever feeling loved by any male individuals when I was younger. I don't know for sure but I don't like the way I am. I just want some guy friends and feel like a normal male teenager for once.

I usually try and be mature about my insecurities and affirm myself that I am capable of ignoring this inferiority I get. but these feelings have been coming back rather frequently. Maybe I'm just tired.

How depressing is it that a stranger is more willing to provide you financial assistance than your mother?

"I want porridge"

"go buy it yourself"

"But I'm sick"

"oh but I showered and washed my hair already."

Good going mum you sure do care about me as much as how you claim to when you tell your friends about taking care of me when I'm sick.

" I woke up early this morning to do housework and rushed out to get some chores done then came home to concoct Chinese medicine for my son oh I'm so busy"

Yea right you mopped the floor which was already sparkling clean and you went out to activate a membership card that is beneficial to only you and you left your younger son home with me and I had to provide breakfast and lunch for him.

you're such a suck up. you make up stories to present yourself as a loving single mum to your friends when really, you're a childish whiny brat going through a mid life crisis. As much as I love you, you're not as much of a parent as you make yourself out to be.

mum and brother got into a car accident. Thankfully they're both alright. The car's wrecked though. and my brother's slightly traumatized.

I was so worried when I heard about the accident I actually cried. like heart wrenching kind of crying. I guess I really do love both of them, as much as they annoy me at times.