im looking forward to school. but im not too, at the same time.

i want to meet new ppl. hotties preferably. or maybe juz ppl whom i can click with very well. oh darn it i juz wan a new sex mate.

once school starts, i know the entire duration of my course will fly by, juz like how it always does. it makes me feel old. i cant help but think 'whats the point in all this when we're all gonna die anyway'. it pulls me back from trying new things. from challenging myself that is. i prefer to juz drink beer and smoke all day. and maybe get laid once or twice a week. since we're gonna die, why not have fun? some ppl might disagree, and say 'instead of thinking that way, why not see it from another perspective?' i guess the only other alternative is to live life to the fullest. as in 'since we're all gonna die anyway, why not make the most of it?"

i always take things for granted. it sucks.