i told myself not to get too deep into this. i thought i had it under control. i guess i was falling head over heels. and for what? some guy who barely gives two fucks about me? its probably best that i take things slow. slower than ever. come on darrick, single life.. you can do this shit. lots of people are single. you just have to take your time, and find a guy truly suitable for you. or girl.whatever.

still listening to 'million dollar man' by lana del rey. god i love that song.

i'd really rather smoke than drink. but i don't have any cigarettes on me so... beer it is!

its chinese new year. just another couple of mundane days.

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Mum and i are more of friends than mother and son now. i guess that's good. she's still a bitch sometimes though. but who isn't.

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i feel really empty these days. i'm still getting used to being single. haha.

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i'm not even in the mood to do work anymore. kinda pushing everything to everyone else. no worries, i'll be getting back on track soon enough. the dog days will be over soon.

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i hope you've moved on.

it's been a while

i have so many things to say. but i'm not in the mood at all to put my thoughts into words.

maybe some time later.

tml's the first day of open house for my school. worked a lil bit on the script just now. hope i have enough information to lead a freaking tour around my freaking school. oh well, for the cca points and the money, i'd do anything. not really looking forward to seeing people from my secondary school though. i dislike almost all of them. bah but who cares. just suck it up and lead your freaking tours, darrick.

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oh and guess what, i got molested today. and i got a scolding from K because i didnt tell him about it immediately after said incident and also because i didn't beat the guy up. im such a joke. cant even defend myself. just sat there, dazed.

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im starting to dislike people from my school.

was trying to be nice and waved to this girl from my course. she just turned away. and lemme tell u, she aint shy. just stuck up and unfriendly. bah fuck her. i have enough friends anyway. just cant get over how some people can behave so obnoxiously. oh and her malay friend too. fuck u dude. i was being so friendly to him the first day we met. but i guess he has his own rights to be oblivious to people's existence huh. judgmental assholes. i hope u guys rot.

so work harder darrick, so you can look down at these people next time and spit in their faces. i kid. but seriously, fuck ya'll.

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wanted to do a post on my mum's mid life crisis but i guess i'll save it for next time.

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i'd love to down that bottle of beer sitting in my fridge since god knows when. but no, shall remain sober so i can function tml.

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this study term has begun!

today's consultation for my debate went well. turns out i had a lot of valid points for my argument *clap clap*

but that's just for one module. gotta work harder.

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some things are really best left unsaid

HAPPY NEW YEAR

it's 2012! ... but i'm still only 17 :(

i CANNOT wait for the 26th of June to come because that is the day i turn semi-legal!!! ^^

come on, you're not 100% legal till you're 21. so listen to your parents, kids. haha who am i kidding. who actually does that anymore. independence ftw!

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I've been eating salad a helluva lot lately. if you have yet to discover the god-sent delicacy that is grilled chicken salad then you must have been living in a god damn cave.

note to self: K's mum makes the best grilled chicken salad. well not really. It's good but only second to MacDonald's :p

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speaking of food, i've been eating alot and barely working out. i'm gaining so much weight i should just slice off my cheeks and stuff myself silly. but no. sloth shall overcome me. i'll just wait for the next semester to arrive and i'll join a sports cca :p

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to be honest i could care less for new years. let alone celebrating them.

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just for emphasis,

I CANNOT,

I REPEAT,

CANNOT, WAIT TO BE 18.

i don't wanna play charades, but that's the only way i can survive