my insecurities.

i have so little self esteem that whenever anyone show me the slightest bit of interest, i jump into a relationship. im so afraid that if i dun grab this fella, there wouldnt be anyone else wanting me. and of course, i end up hurting the other party because i never EVER really get that interested at all.

and of course, i long for company.

i need to be more independent. i think im starting to get the hang of it.
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it's time to get healthier, fitter. i miss the jawline i had for like, a month because i was really working out hard at that time. 

i have gotten lazier, naturally. but no more sloth! easier said than done, but done it shall be. muahhaha. 

i'm a little drunk as i type this. goodnight.