stagnant. everything's stagnant. i'm making no progress in anything at all. what's happening. 


everything's at a standstill. i can only wish for this to end. 


what else can i do? take action? i could try. i can always try. 


but to what end? i'm just going to die anyway. wind up in a coffin. or scattered into the wind. 


people say it's what you have to show for when you die. that's what counts. 


but does it really matter? who do you show it to? the children? are they not going to die anyway? is the planet not going to die anyway? 


everything that is existing will cease to exist. death is inevitable. 


and that was my attempt at being morbid because i'm trying to distract myself from school work. god i need motivation.