i just can't deal with drama anymore. i just can't. i wish i wasn't just trying to be melodramatic here but i say this with utmost sincerity. im not usually this candor, but you people have gone too far. 


i'm fucking tired. i have assignments to do, presentations to prepare, i have to work to support myself, and my feet hurts like hell from training. i've had enough.


i've made it clear from the start i have no intentions of getting into a r/s any time soon.


i wasn't kidding.


i don't need my ex-boyfriend telling me how much he wants to get back tgt; i don't need my neighbour constantly updating every social network he's on about how his love for me isn't reciprocated; and i sure as hell don't need a call from an acquaintance every other day asking to have sex. 


if i say:


"i have work to do. i'm not ignoring you, i'm just busy"


i fucking mean that i'm busy and i don't mean to fucking ignore you.


so stop it. 


just, PLEASE, stop it. 


i have poured every ounce of love i had into my last r/s. it didn't turn out too well, and i became the bitter person i am now. so i'm tired, alright?


My chest pains are back, they hurt as hell, and all i want is a fucking glass of wine and a fucking cigarette. 


i'm sorry, but i'm just so tired.