27/4/2012

my brother will grow up to be sooo much better looking than me. with his thick lips, wavy hair, and double eyelids urgh

telling me im such a gem. how im so different from everyone else. yea that's probably why i dun have many friends.

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9/5/2012

things have changed. i'm different now. and quite negatively at that.

i almost fell in love again. too bad things didn't turn out the way i hoped it would. Z was an ugly fella. but he was nice. he was considerate, and i felt like i could be happy with him, despite his apparent childishness. maybe i took too long to reciprocate any possible feelings he could have had for me. or maybe he never did like me. maybe being nice is just in his nature.

regardless, it's over now. we're strangers from now on. i won't turn back. i hope i wouldn't. i'm already as pathetic as i can possibly get. i'm just glad i didn't fall in too deep this time. i'd learnt my lesson 3 years ago.

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R.I.P grandma. we might not be biologically related, and to be honest we really weren't that close, but i can't say i wasn't affected by your passing. i hope you're in a better place now.