it's been a while.

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if exercising can provide an escape from my own thoughts, i'd work out everyday.

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somberness aside, i've been craving for cigarettes more frequently than food. sounds insignificant, i know, but it's always been the other way round. screw it, i dun even feel like eating anything these days. gonna save up as much money as i can and idk, go for plastic surgery or something, ha! i've been getting these acne outbreaks that really piss the fuck out of me. puberty better be done soon.

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it's a warm night. i've been sleeping at 7am and waking up at 7pm. kinda like a routine now. can't wait to start working so i can get my life back in order. waking up that late means i always hafta go running in the middle of the night. paranoia~

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as much i hate to admit it, i thought a lot about you last night. dun get your hopes up though. i'm just... starting to appreciate sunsets.

K.L