if my ex, K, does wind up killing himself, i don't think it will have much effect on my life. 

everybody's going to die someday. might as well be today. 

if i die today, i don't think i'll mind that much. of course i'll have much to regret. then again, we'll always have mistakes we wish we could correct. in that sense, it doesnt matter if you feel like you haven't lived properly because we'll all end up the same.

if you do kill yourself, you're a brat then. it's not as if you don't have a choice. you can still change how you're going to be remembered after you're gone. but idk. if you wanna kill yourself, go ahead. it's your life. do whatever you want with it.

you have to know how to let go. you have to know how to give people the space they need. you cant just go to ppl's houses and refuse to leave. you cant call someone every single day and then go to their houses and knock on their doors when they don't pick up. you cant threaten to kill yourself when the other party says no. but i've had enough of the harassing and you trying to have sex with me at every opportunity you get. that's it. you wanna kill yourself? go ahead.